A Suicide note

A Suicide Note

by your casual writer

well, how long has it been?

after seconds, minutes, hours, days

year by year, I'm stuck in a dream

waiting that one day, I'm cast away

How long has it been?

living this undoubtedly black and white life

with no colour that pass me by

with no will, with pain I strive

will somebody wake me up from this pain?

with nothing to help me live through

living life as it is, without a gain

or with no mission, my life has grew

Black and white is all I see

venturing life through an ink on paper

something can't break this loneliness be

with nobody to save from going deeper

But then again what is life?

venturing through a stroke of a pen

striving hard everyday, too deep that I dive

how to confess when nobody is to read my inevitable plan?

I do hope nobody will miss me crying

somehow deep down, I feel happy

this noose will heed my calling

and let my soul slips away, waking me...

P.S

It's all only a poem, I'm not really killing myself, the truth is a lot of people have died from suicide.

and I dedicate this poem to the deceased, wishing that everyone that died from various reason, may their soul rest in peace. people out there, if anyone still read this, never give up, life always have a solution, never give in to your inner demons, either that is depression, loneliness, etc, you need to get past that, by killing yourself will not solve anything, it hardly even solved their problem what it does is heaping more problem, to the people that actually care for them, love them, know that there is still people out there that needs us, even though we have done bad things to them or even ruin their lives, with your going, will not solve anything, and you will only be committing a unbearable sin.

so all of you out there, suffering from anything at all, please consider getting help, don't get trapped in your own safety box and not letting any air in, shut tight from society, it will only add the one thing we hate...the one thing I hate....loneliness.

it is hard to battle our own demons, but we can't give in, not yet, get some help or do the simplest thing most, talk to someone, your crush, your family, anyone for the very most, for interacting with another, calms the heart, for all of you out there that is suffering just like I do, don't give in yet, leave that noose alone, lock that balcony door, don't go to that bridge because life is precious... life is priceless and we need to shelter it dearly, that is what I learn after talking to a few people, never ever give in, no matter how hard it is.